The stars lean down to kiss me
Profile
L is for LIEN :D
I is for icecream♡
E as in 7teeeeeen !
N is for how ninja i am8)
N because im NICE O=)
Y as in hell yeah i love viet (:
Miss Chatterbox
Your an error in my system
8:11 AM, Sunday, January 25, 2009,
I dont understand you, and to be honest i dont think i ever will. Your’re like one of those drifting figures, who come and go as they please. Waltz in when you feel like it, then waltz right back out when it suits you best. Im fucking sick of it. Being stuck in your mind games all the time. You have this fantasy or fucked up idea in your head, that everything just revolves around you, and nothing is right unless it is going your way. Frankly, im sick of you as a person, and you have no idea how much annoyance i have for you right now. I try and tolerate you as much as i can, because it is not like me, to push someone away nor hold a grudge. Your’re someone who i believed, made a great impact on my life. Someone not worth losing, over such an insignificant event..& so there was a point in our past that i had fallen for your every deceiving lie.
You suffocated me for so long, and yet for most of that time I had no clue. I thought it was normal. I thought it was all part of being there for you. Now when I think back on it, I realise how I was just your door mat. No matter how much you hurt me I was always there for you to fall back on. I made that clear, that even though we no longer had the title - being friends was always an option, and like the cold hearted selfish child you are, you used up every ounce of strength and effort inside of you to erase me completely from your life. & to be honest - it hurt.
It hurt to see the cut up pictures, the rejected birthday phone calls, oh and who could forget the never ending verbal abuse i copped from you. It seemed to me, that you had rather not known me at all than know that i could be with someone else. If i was not your girlfriend, i was not allowed to be your friend. Whatever, i did as you wished, and i let go of everything. I forgot you and to no suprise everything got better.
That is, until you returned with your fake crap and utter bullshit. Why i decided to let you back in my life, is still beyond me. I was so happy to hear from you after such a long time, that i guess nothing mattered to me anymore. Once again you waltz in, trying to pick up from where we left off. You gave me a bullshit talk and made everything seem alright again. I dont understand how you can do that.
Your’re very lucky that your’re dealing with someone such as myself, because i am fucking sure that any other girl would cut your balls off for being such a dick. Anyways, your presence was much adored over the following week or so, and i got used to having you around again. Only this time, i was only a listener and nothing else. I took in every harsh comment you made about your current girlfriend and said nothing but nice things about her, and to my suprise, any mention of my boyfriend and you would slowly back away. Your calls and messages to me daily took me by suprise, but it was nice to see you pretended to care about how my day was going or what i was doing.You tried seducing me, with your corny "nice and funny" guy tricks, but when i made no response, it hit you that i had moved on, and am actually happy with someone else. So, you did what you thought was right. Erasing me from your life again. & for what? Thats right - for no good reason, but to have you say " i realised i'd feel much happier if we never talk again *insert bullshit cliche lame excuse here*"
Looking back on your short return, i saw your real intention of coming back was not to patch up our severely damaged friendship, but to use me as a distraction to get away from your girlfriend. and once things had gotten back on track with the missus, my services were no longer needed - so back into the storage box i went.
I really hope i never have to encounter another meeting with you for as long as i live, because i think ive had enough drama from you to last me 20 life times. I kinda refuse to even think about how pathetic you are, because even that would be not worth it.
" im now just an ordinary guy - no more no less" - i guess you got your wish.
pfft, its currently 1:40am & im just about ready to collapse in bed.
Happy Vietnamese/Chinese new year guys (:
make the most of every moment yet to come.
what a way to start off the new year.
Shit - i have drumband in 4 hours. ==